Five of Swords - If I Fail, I'll Feel Good Doing It

"In great attempts it is glorious even to fail."

The Five of Swords presents a choice. Am I going to go cry by the ocean or am I going to smile because I tried? Neither option is wrong. Feel what's real. But for me, I choose the thought that feels better. When I think of the dream that I want more than anything right now, my heart swells. When I imagine it coming true, that's when I want to cry. I want to cry with happiness and joy for things that haven't happened yet. When I think of it not coming true, yes, it makes me sad. But more than that I am happy to have wanted something so much. That's the feeling that I love. That's the feeling that's more important to me than the dream coming true. At the end of the day, I think the orange-haired man in the Five of Cups experiences sadness, too. How could he not? But he represents focusing on the reason why these three men were fighting this battle. Were they noble? Did they fight for what they believed in? Did they give it their all? As I researched the Five of Cups, I found that this orange haired man has developed a not so positive reputation with many. It isn't commonly acceptable to smile after you fail. But I imagine him saying, "Brothers, we gave this everything we had. I smile for the existence of something I care so deeply for. I smile for the peace that comes after war." 

When I look at it that way, it is glorious to want you. It is glorious to want anything at all. If I fail, so be it. 

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