The Five of Cups: Get Over It
What I see: Someone standing with their head down wearing a long black cape. Three cups are knocked down and two are still standing. The three fallen cups look like liquid has spilled out of them. A red liquid out of two and water out of one. There's a building in the distance. The ground is gold and the sky looks like a faded gold. There is a bridge with water running beneath it.
How I feel: Nervous. I see the black cape and fallen cups and I think it can't be good.
Meaning: It's not as bad as it looks. Upright it could mean dealing with a loss and seeing the cup half empty. It means cynicism, possible loss of optimism, self-pity and regret. Reversed is the recovery phase, accepting what has happened and moving on. A great quote that summarizes this card reversed: "Sometimes disappointments are required to see through illusions and free you to find what is truly of value in life (biddytarot)."
Personal: Introspective Tarot calls this the "getting over it" card and says it represents the end of a lesson that's not quite over but almost there. They pose some good questions to help with understanding this lesson so I'm going to answer them for myself.
First it's important to identify the lesson. My biggest loss recently has been a lover of three years so I know this is part of my lesson. I believe my lesson is to be true to myself and others even when it may seem easier or more pleasant to do otherwise. Introspective Tarot says it's important to not consider yourself the victim when analyzing the lesson. So I'm supposed to talk about what I could've done better or what I did to contribute to the situation. I pride myself on not being able to tell lies but it's time to hold myself accountable. I need to stop being an emotional liar. I think I'm doing it for the sake of the other person but in the end, I'm doing it for myself. When I don't know how to deal or say what I really feel, I lie. I want to be liked, so I lie. I lie to my friends, family, coworkers and even myself. I wear masks. I can be anyone I want to be when it suits me as long as it means I'm avoiding painful situations. And then, when it all gets to be too much, it's three years of pain on one day given to one confused person who doesn't know where any of it is coming from. How could I have handled my past relationships better?
Tell the truth.
It's time to let go of who I was and welcome the person I'm becoming. I deserve to tell the truth.
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