Ten of Wands (R): Blessings and Burdens
Question: What do I need to know right now?
What I see: A man carrying ten long sticks. Leaves grow at the ends of them. He buries his face in them and carries them awkwardly. They look like they will fall. The sky is blue. There is a town in front of him.
What I feel: Overwhelmed. Delusional.
Meaning: Upright it means a heavy burden has been taken on. Reversed it can mean feeling burdened when it's not necessary. It can mean stress.
What I feel: Overwhelmed. Delusional.
Meaning: Upright it means a heavy burden has been taken on. Reversed it can mean feeling burdened when it's not necessary. It can mean stress.
Personal: I don't know what's happening. My intuition feels weak right now. I'm not thinking clearly. I pulled this card two days ago and I haven't been able to focus enough to write about it.
Edit: 6/6/13: I've been working on this card for over a week. I decided to rewrite what I wrote here because it was emotion heavy and borderline incoherent. I asked for strength from the Universe and to be reminded that I'm on the right path. A week later I'm ready to talk about what this card told me.
I got scared about moving to New York. Honestly, I began doubting that I'm being supported by something bigger than myself. I began worrying about the "hows." Mike Dooley, creator of Notes from the Universe says not to worry about the "cursed hows." How am I going to get a ride from the airport? How will I find a welcoming place to stay? How am I going to make it in the city where if you can make it there, you can make it anywhere? Almost every time I doubt the Universe, whether it's a split second, a day, or 3 months, I feel sad when I remember I didn't have to. I can't even explain how thankful I am to have been reminded. But I did ask for it after all.
And then I learn a little bit about love. Even when I have moments of doubt, I'm still loved and taken care of. My beautiful cousin offered to pick me up from the airport and I didn't even ask. My grandparents will be in New York on "business" so I'll be spending the weekend with them at my Aunt's house. Another cousin will be housesitting while her grandma is out of town and has offered for me to stay with her for two weeks. SO thankful.
And the rest is for future Kristina to worry about. (inspired by Ted Mosby).
I'm deciding today, once and for all to be happy and to have unshakeable faith in my life.
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Other notes/materialistic blessings: Last week I searched hard for a pair of black pants. They needed to be perfect and affordable. I've been wearing a pair of my mom's to work and I love them. I went to the store where she bought them last year and of course they didn't have them anymore. I came home to my Aunt Paula standing at the top of the stairs holding the exact same pair of pants in my exact size, offering them to me because they were too long on her. She doesn't like to try clothes on and never got around to returning them. She didn't even know I had been looking for those pants all day. It's so simple but I could've cried from happiness. Free, perfect pants! She sang to me in her sweet voice, "somewhere in your youth or childhood, you must've done something good." :) Not to mention, I looked at the price tag and they were $60! (She got them on sale, but still.) That would've been way out of my budget.
Also, last Saturday, I took my lifeproof case off my phone for one day and dropped it in the toilet. I put it in rice, waited 36 hours and tried to turn it on. No luck. I kept it together and said things like "it's okay, I'll figure it out," but in my head I was SO sad. My cousin mentioned to me that the same thing happened to her when she first got her phone and it never even stopped working. That sounded like a miracle and renewed my faith. After I got off the phone with her I plugged my phone in to charge and laid in bed for a few minutes before I had to go to work. I heard my phone make the vibrate noise it makes when it turns on and screamed. What the heck!? My phone is working.
My mind is blown. Gratitude off the charts. And it's only going to get better.
*Note to self: It's okay to spend a week or however long it takes to meditate on one card and feel it unfold.
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I got scared about moving to New York. Honestly, I began doubting that I'm being supported by something bigger than myself. I began worrying about the "hows." Mike Dooley, creator of Notes from the Universe says not to worry about the "cursed hows." How am I going to get a ride from the airport? How will I find a welcoming place to stay? How am I going to make it in the city where if you can make it there, you can make it anywhere? Almost every time I doubt the Universe, whether it's a split second, a day, or 3 months, I feel sad when I remember I didn't have to. I can't even explain how thankful I am to have been reminded. But I did ask for it after all.
And then I learn a little bit about love. Even when I have moments of doubt, I'm still loved and taken care of. My beautiful cousin offered to pick me up from the airport and I didn't even ask. My grandparents will be in New York on "business" so I'll be spending the weekend with them at my Aunt's house. Another cousin will be housesitting while her grandma is out of town and has offered for me to stay with her for two weeks. SO thankful.
And the rest is for future Kristina to worry about. (inspired by Ted Mosby).
I'm deciding today, once and for all to be happy and to have unshakeable faith in my life.
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Other notes/materialistic blessings: Last week I searched hard for a pair of black pants. They needed to be perfect and affordable. I've been wearing a pair of my mom's to work and I love them. I went to the store where she bought them last year and of course they didn't have them anymore. I came home to my Aunt Paula standing at the top of the stairs holding the exact same pair of pants in my exact size, offering them to me because they were too long on her. She doesn't like to try clothes on and never got around to returning them. She didn't even know I had been looking for those pants all day. It's so simple but I could've cried from happiness. Free, perfect pants! She sang to me in her sweet voice, "somewhere in your youth or childhood, you must've done something good." :) Not to mention, I looked at the price tag and they were $60! (She got them on sale, but still.) That would've been way out of my budget.
Also, last Saturday, I took my lifeproof case off my phone for one day and dropped it in the toilet. I put it in rice, waited 36 hours and tried to turn it on. No luck. I kept it together and said things like "it's okay, I'll figure it out," but in my head I was SO sad. My cousin mentioned to me that the same thing happened to her when she first got her phone and it never even stopped working. That sounded like a miracle and renewed my faith. After I got off the phone with her I plugged my phone in to charge and laid in bed for a few minutes before I had to go to work. I heard my phone make the vibrate noise it makes when it turns on and screamed. What the heck!? My phone is working.
My mind is blown. Gratitude off the charts. And it's only going to get better.
*Note to self: It's okay to spend a week or however long it takes to meditate on one card and feel it unfold.
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